It been a long while since i updated my xanga. I been busy with school and work. Everything is going okay its almost the holiday and it sucks cause buying presents and  be broke. I hate beening broke and dont have money.  Life is okay i guess. Right now im just trying to find a new job i hope before end of this year or begining next year. I miss working one job.  Im burned our and wore out working two jobs.

I MISS YOU MY BABY MIZZTIEN. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART.  YOU MEAN EVERYTHING TO ME. I CANT BELIEVE IT IN FOURTEEN MORE DAYS ITS GOING BE OUR TWO YEAR ANNIVERSARY TIME FLY SO QUICK. I MISS SPENDING TIME WITH YOU AND HEARING YOUR VOICE. I MISS THE CUDDLE, KISSING, AND BEENING LOVE DUBBY BIRD. EVERY SINGLE DAY AND MINUTE I AM THINKING OF YOU JUST TO LET YOU KNOW.  WHEN I SEE YOU YOU GOING BE IN TROUBLE CAUSE IM GOING HUG YOU TIGHT AND KISS YOU. ALSO IM NOT GOING LET YOU GO HEHE. MUAH BABY!

LONG TIME NO WRITING IN MY XANGA. I DECIDE TO UPDATE IT . I CANT SLEEP RIGHT NOW I'M JUST WRITING, LISTEN SLOW JAM, THINKING AND DRINKING.

I'M  NOT THE SAME PERSON LIKE A YEAR OR TWO . I USE TO BE STRONG,PHYSICAL, AND MENTAL. BUT NOW I FEEL LIKE I'M A DIFFERENT PERSON.NEW PERSON, WEAKER VERSION NOT STRONG AS BEFORE. EVERYTHING IS FALL APART SLOWLY AND I'M LOOSE IT AT THE SAME TIME. NOW I JUST GET PEOPLE PISS OFF AND I GET YELL AT. FOR EXAMPLE MY PARENT GRANDMA AND FATHER THEY DON'T UNDERSTAND WHERE I'M COMING FROM AND DOING. THEY YELL AT ME SAYING THAT NOT HOW YOU DO IT WRONG WAY OR THEY DON'T LIKE THE WAY I'M DOING STUFF.

MY PARENTS AND OTHER PEOPLE SAY STUFF TO ME LIKE FOR EXAMPLE USELESS PERSON, FAIL ER,ETC YEP THEY CORRECT ABOUT THAT. I WONT BE ABLE TO ACCOMPLISH IT I WILL JUST FALL AND BECOME FAIL ER. ITS TRUE WHAT THEY SAY. I'M JUST A USELESS SON TO MY PARENT AND PEOPLE JUST MAKE THEM FEEL STUPID,RETARDED,AND EMBARRASSMENT.

 I KNOW I'M A USELESS PERSON AND A FAIL ER. ALSO SAME TIME A BAD BOYFRIEND. SOMETIME I LOOK AT OTHER PEOPLE RELATIONSHIP AND MY FRIENDS. SOMETIME  I SAY TO MYSELF SHE DESERVE BETTER TREATMENT FROM ME AND OTHER THINGS. I CANT GIVE HER THAT. I'M SORRY. BUT I JUST HAVE TO SAY I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND YOU MEAN A LOT TO ME.

RESOLUTION FOR THIS FOR ME TO DISAPPEAR AND VANISH GOOD. I KNOW IT WILL BE FOR THE BEST AND AT THE SAME TIME PAINFUL FOR SOME PEOPLE. I THINK THAT THE RIGHT DECISION. SO I WONT INTERFERE NO BODY LIFE AND TIME. I WONT BE IN NO BODY WAYS. BUT I WILL BE UP IN THE AIR AND SPIRIT WATCH FROM ABOVE.

THANKS FOR EVERYTHING FOR ALL THE PEOPLE GIVE ME LOVE,SUPPORT,HAD CONFIDENCE IN ME, DIDN'T GIVE UP ON ME, AND GIVE ME MOMENTUM. ESPICALLY MY GIRLFRIEND MIZZTIEN SHE BEEN THEIR BY MY SIDE THICK AND HHIN, HOMIES,INSTRUCTOR, LITTLE SISTER KIANA.

THOSE THREE SONG IS MY TOP SLOW I LISTEN. IT TOUCH BE AND MAKE ME REFLECT ON THEM. ITS DEEP. ITS TRUE LYRICS. THANKS MY HOMIEZBOI CUZZIN CSKIPPAH YOU HAVE FLOWS AND SKILL TO WRITE SONG. THE TITLES ARE '' I STILL LOVE YOU'', '' IT AINT THE SAME NO MORE", AND FINALLY "  MY LIL BABY GURL.  HE REP THE BAY AREA SUCKZ FREE CITY CUZZIN! 415-510-650-925!

THE LAST SONG  I HAVE IS FROM MY HOMIEZ BOI CSKIPPAH THE TITLE IS CALL I STILL LOVE YOU. ITS TOUCHING AND EMOTIONAL I BELIEVE IF YOU FOLLOW THE LYRICS. HE IS REP THE BAY AREA SUCKZ FREE CITY!

"i sTiLL lOVe yOu"
Lyrics for "i sTiLL lOVe yOu"
WHEN I PROPOSED
I COULD C IT IN UR EYES
DAT U BEEN WATEN FOR THIS
FOR A LONG TIME
BUT UR FEELNS WAS
STRONGER FOR HIM
I PUT THE RING ON UR FINGER
U TOOK IT OFF N SED NO

AND WHEN U LEFT
MY HEART STOP N DIED
AND WHEN U LEFT MYSIDE
APART OF ME JUST WENT OUT N DIED

AND IF I DIE TONITE
BABY PLZ DONT VISIT ME
AT MY FUNERAL
I'LL JUST MEET U AT THE CROSSROAD

U STILL
HOLD THE KEYS
TO MY HEART
IT WILL NEVA STOP
MY MUSIC WILL LIVE ON
LIKE MY LOVE FOR U
IS SOO STRONG
IT WILL NEVA BE GONE
I HOPE U LISTEN TO
THIS SONG CLOSEY
LIKE
LISTEN TO THE LYRICS
BOO
DAMN I MISS U

I MISS U SOO DAMN MUCH
ALL THE THINGS DAT I
SED N DONE
I TRULY APOLOGIZE
FROM THE BOTTOM
OF MY HEART

AND WHEN I WAS
GONA CHANGE
IT WAS 2LATE
U ALREADY CHANGE
UR HEART

IF I LOVE U
I HAVE TO
LEARN TO LET U GO
MY HIGH SKEWL
SWEET HEART
NOW ITS BITTER N OLD

EVEN THO U ERASE ME FROM
UR HEART N SOUL
REPLACED ME WITH SOMEONE NEW
NOW ITS SOO COLD
20 YEARS GONE BY
IM STILL LOVE U
IF U COME BACC
MY ARMS IS OPEN FOR U

IN A MILLION YEAR
I WILL
I NEVA TURN MY BAC ON U
I PUT MY LIFE ON THE LINE
LIKE TAKE A BULLET FOR U
C I RATHER BE DEAD
DEN SEE U DEAD

IM SITTING HERE ALL ALONE
WATEN FOR UR RETURN
LIKE A STONE
C I TRY TO WRITE U A SPECIAL
SONG
BUT IT NEVA COME OUT RIGHT
I HOPE U LIKE DIS ONE
I HOPE U DO
IM ONLY IN SKIN N BONE
IM BOUT TO BE DEAD N GONE
IM LEAVEN U FAR AWAY
N AWAY FROM HOME

Second Slow jam From My HoMIez Boi  CSKIPPAH its call It AInt the Same No more! The lyric is deeply and touch you.

"IT aInT ThE sAMe"
EVA SINCE U LEFT
ME GURL
MY LIFE HAS BEEN SO HARD
EVA SINCE U LEFT
ME GURL
MY LIFE AINT BEEN THE SAME

IT AINT BEEN THE SAME
IT AINT BEEN THE SAME
IT AINT BEEN THE SAME
SINCE U LEFT
U TOOK MY HEART WITH U....

NOW ALL I GOT IS
PICTURES N MEMORIES
OF U N I
SOMETIME I WANNA CRY
WHEN IM FEELIN ALONE AT NITE
GOT NO ONE TO HOLD
CUZ U GAVE UR HEART LOVE N SOUL
TO SOMEONE NEW DAT U MET AT SKEWL
AND WHEN I TRY TO CALLIN U
JUST TO APOLOGIZE
U REJECT MY PHONE CALL
I HOLD BAC MY FEELINS N TEARS
INSIDE
TRY NOT TO LET IT GET TO ME
CUZ I GUESS
ITS OUR DESTINY
ITS MEANT TO BE
N BEST TO BE
I WAS BLIND TO C
BUT NOW I C


EVA SINCE U LEFT
ME GURL...
MY LIFE HAS BEEN SO HARD
EVA SINCE U LEFT
ME GURL...
MY LIFE AINT BEEN
IT AINT BEEN THE SAME

IT AINT BEEN THE SAME
IT AINT BEEN THE SAME
IT AINT BEEN THE SAME
SINCE U LEFT
U TOOK MY HEART WITH U

NOW ALL I GOT
IS A
PRINCESS CUT RING
WITHOUT A PRINCESS
WHY
REMEMBER DAT ONEDAY
AT NIGHT
AT THE BEACH
WHEN I TRY TO CHANGE JUST FOR U
FOR U N ONLY U
I PROPOSE
BUT U SED NO
DEN I FOUND OUT
HOW COULD IT BE
N WHY ME
WHY IT GOTAS BE MEH
O5 HAS BEEN SO HARD
EVEN MORE
U TOOK OFF ON ME
WHEN MY DAD WAS GONE

THATS WHY I RATHER SPILL
MY HEART OUT
ON THIS SONG
DEN WRITING A LOVE LETTER
DAT WOULD
TAKE TAKE TAKE
SO DAMN LONG

C
I AINT MAD AT YAH
SINCES U DONT NEVA
PIC UP MY PHONE CALL
N THIS THE ONLY WAY
I CAN GET TO U
I JUST WANTED TO SEY
I HOPE U DOING GOOD WITH HIM
N HES TREATIN U BETTER
DEN I DID
AND IM SORRY FOR ALL OF
THOSE 7YRS N 8MONTHS WEEKS N DAYS
DAT GONE BY
AND I AINT NEVA SED I LOVE U
N I MISS U
ITS KINDA LATE TO LET U NOE NOW
BUT IMA LET U NOE ANYWAYS
I LOVE U N I MISS U GURL
WESTSIDE ONE LOVE- KHMAI LIFE